I have had this blasted thing for over a year and had made a New Year's resolution to actually post every day. Then I made an unemployment resolution to post everyday. That was a month ago. So much for that. I will pretend that all my time was sapped up with frantic search for employment, but really I am down to working on finding a job every couple of days, instead of daily. Its very draining. I suppose this is a good time for a list post. Things that have happened in the past year? no, that sounds dumb and who the
fuck heck wants to read that anyways.
I think really this is a time for reassessment. My life is nowhere near where I expected to be right now. A year ago I was engaged in a long distance relationship, I was in college, ready to start student teaching, but generally pessimistic about things. I don't know why I was so pessimistic, because looking back, it sure seems like I should have been happy. But I really wasn't. Maybe my life was too planned out already. I felt suffocated. At 21 I already "knew" what I was going to do for the rest of my life and who I would spend it with.
I graduated from Illinois State in December with a B.A. in History Education. My student teaching went fairly well. I started looking for jobs. I was thinking that maybe I am not ready to be a teacher yet, that I am too young. I took a job working for a friend of mine as a favor, and I really enjoyed it. I was working run crew for a show with another fantastic person, and then working as a carpenter for the same theatre company. In the 3 months after my graduation I was happier than I had been in a long time because I had thrown my "plan" to hell.
I broke off my engagement in March. It has been 2 months since I did it and really I don't regret it at all. I feel liberated. I feel relaxed. I suppose that means that it was not meant to be, that the relationship would have ended eventually. It is probably good one of us realized that before we had a binding legal contract and children.
Two months later I am single, unemployed, out of school, with no real plan of action other than find some consistent income and I am really really happy.
I plan to go out to the arboretum tomorrow with my friend Chris. I will wear lolita, with flowers, and a hat. It seems appropriate.
Taken from alicesyndrome
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
A friend of my parents from college, but I think they just liked the name since I've never met her.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Last night watching Deadliest Catch. It was a sad episode ok!!
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Very much so, I don't know anyone else who writes exclusivly in cursive.
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Someday, hopefully not too soon
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
I'm trying to break the habbit.
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yup, although my dentist always says they are huge.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Maybe, only over water.
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Honey bunches of oats!!!
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Depends on the shoes.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Chocolate Cherry Chip from Kroger
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
If they are friendly and polite.
15. RED OR PINK?
16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST Favorite THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
My fiance, he lives in Florida. :o(
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
Blue Jeans and rainbow heart printed socks.
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
CNN on the TV but I have Swagger by Flogging Molly in my car's CD player
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
Baking bread, lemon balm, lady gray tea, fresh coffee
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My boss Julie
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
Yup, but I only borrowed it. She can have it back if she likes.
26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
27. FAVORITE HAIR COLOR?
28. FAVORITE EYE COLOR?
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Yup, but just the boring old perscription ones, not colored.
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Scarry movies with happy endings.
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
The Magnificant Seven (ooooh Steve McQueen, you are way to sexy!!!)
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
A brown polo and a gray zippy hoodie.
34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
Depends on whos doin' the kissin'
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
umm.... me? I've already done this once.
39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Eddison and the Electric Chair
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
I have a laptop, but I used to have a mousepad that was printed to look like a tiny oriental rug.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Deadliest Catch. I <3 the crab guys!
42. FAVORITE SOUND(S):
My brother practicing his french horn,
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Depends on my mood, but jagger looks like a frog, so the beatles win on that front.
44. WHAT IS THE FURTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Not very far, California a few times, and Florida a few times, not really sure which is farther from Chicago.
45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Sewing, and I suppose teaching.
46 WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE/SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
We met through a few mutual friends, but we started talking on facebook XoP
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!! My mother has actually forbidden me to sew for at least the next week or so. I'm not sure if it was the fact that my little bob started eating the threads I dropped or my slight breakdown after 5 hours of making 1/3 inch pleats. The effect was awesome, but I don't think it was worth the time I spent on it, at least in 1 afternoon. This is a bit of a problem since my bridesmaids dress doesn't fit right, and the wedding is on Friday. I think I will try to get a hiatus on my sewing hiatus untill that dress is finished.
Well, I have been reading the loli communities on here for a while, and I finally got an account so I felt I should write something. Not really sure what to write, but hey. I am oddly getting into shiro lolita, which suprises me since I look AWFUL in white, but I like it in a way. It makes me look Morticia Adams pale, and my freckles look super red, but its kinda cute in a weird way.